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Ever looked at your to-do list and thought, "This is fine" ... while secretly knowing it’s a ticking time bomb of unmet expectations? Or caught yourself mid-parenting fail (like whispering "just hit her back"  to your kid) and wondered if you’re raising tiny anarchists? Same. This episode dives into the beautiful mess of actual  life but also how cult tactics and capitalism start to look suspiciously similar, and where every "two-minute task" is a lie designed to crush your A

Episode 12 begins with AI psychosis… and ends with toddler meltdowns. Because that’s how we do things here. This episode is what happens when two people spiral into deep philosophical despair about synthetic spirituality, algorithmic delusion, and the death of discipline… and then tell parenting stories. Abmari asks AI if it’s accidentally  creating a cult of delusional spiritual advisors. The AI says: “You’re not wrong.” Jill watches a mom in a park tell her screaming toddle

So… we finished Episode 10 and then immediately hit record again, because apparently ego death is a multi-part experience. 🪦 (And we hadn’t even touched on potato salad, murder, or ship metaphors yet.) In Episode 11: More Death (but funny) , we’re back with fresh shirts, slightly less sanity, and even more reflections on what it really means to let something die — thoughts, identities, marriages, and maybe your idea of right and wrong. 😅 No big deal. We talk about: Breathwo

Welcome to the void.  Have you ever accidentally attended a San Pedro sweat lodge ceremony on a whim, crawled into the sacred womb, met your inner demons face-first, and then immediately hopped on a podcast to discuss the death of your ego while still spiritually hungover? No? Just Hasan? ( That’s our guest for this episode ) And it is a fever dream in the best way. Featuring: spontaneous death, rebirth, sweating profusely, baby birds, sacred wombs, ancestral alchemy, shadow-

This week’s episode of Interested in Chaos?  is a full-on demolition of the "people-pleaser" label—because surprise, it’s not them you’re trying to please. It’s you. 😳 🫨 My co-host and I ripped apart why "people-pleasing" is just: ✔️ Self-judgment in disguise (you’re the one assuming they’ll respond negatively). ✔️ A control tactic (manipulating outcomes to avoid discomfort). ✔️ An identity crisis (if you’re not "nice," who even are you?). And yes, we also dove into: Why li

Can I be honest? Actually, that’s not even a question. 🙄 I’m always honest… here’s my bold view on imposter syndrome. It’s not real. It’s just your brain's way of saying "new things scare me".  This week on Interested in Chaos , Abmari and I dismantle imposter syndrome like it’s a flimsy IKEA shelf, exposing it as a glorified shame spiral with a fancy label.  Along the way, we: ✔ Debunk the "Syndrome" Scam  ✔ Confess Our Criminal Potential (Yes, we went there) ✔ Compare Addi

Have you ever had one of those moments where you realize—mid-sentence, mid-meltdown, mid-clean-sheets-getting-peed-on—that you’re aware of what’s happening and still doing it anyway?   Yeah. Me too. 🫠   Whether it’s a childhood trauma, a creative block, or just being bone-tired and snapping at your kid, the chaos doesn’t stop. But how we choose to show up in it? That’s where the transformation begins.   This week’s episode was like a spiritual enema for your excuses—flushin

Ever feel like your ideas are screaming to be born while your brain is still trying to find the epidural? 😱 In this week’s episode of Interested in Chaos?, we went full doula on the creative process and talked about what it really means to gestate genius — to let ideas marinate, evolve, and find their own rhythm before we start pushing them out into the world. We’re birthing some uncomfortable truths about creativity (and apparently a lot of rage): ✔ The Idea Pregnancy Time

Let’s play a game. 🤔 How many of these sound familiar? You rage-quit a "passion project" because it started feeling like unpaid overtime. You’ve cried over IKEA furniture (or a closet knob that would not  cooperate). Your "self-care" is just another item on your to-do list, sandwiched between "laundry" and "existential dread." If you nodded along, Episode 4 of Interested in Chaos?  is your audio therapy session. Jill and Fran go full rebel mode against productivity culture,

Ever asked a chatbot for something simple (say, a PDF) only to watch it mislead you into oblivion? “I’ll have it ready in 30 minutes…”  🤡 (Spoiler: It was never coming.) In this Episode of Interested in Chaos? , we dissect the artful dodging  of AI—plus: The bedtime breathwork conspiracy  (how kids trick us into “meditating” when they’re really just avoiding bedtime). Candle resurrections  (the ultimate metaphor for adulting: melt it down, start over, pretend it was intentio