Sin, Surrender and Scaring the Children

Abmari Saez-Millet and I visit some unexpected territory this week. We pulled two cards from a yoga philosophy oracle deck and what followed was one of the most raw, unhinged, and surprisingly clarifying conversations we’ve had.

We somehow ended up down a rabbit hole that includes:

The TRUE meaning of “sin” 👹 (spoiler: it’s not what you learned in Sunday school).

A full-blown, horror-movie-style ghost story involving a 7-year-old, a shelf, and a demon that turned out to be… me. 🤭

The massive energetic difference between running from pain and running towards goodness 🏃 (they feel similar, but the frequency is completely different).

A brutally honest look at addiction, not as a failure, but as a misguided search for what we’re truly hungry for. 🫂

Why “enlightenment” is a feeling, not a permanent destination, and how to find it while sitting in the middle of pure chaos. 🧘

A Moment to Pause in the Chaos

Often, in the middle of the conversational whirlwind, a few truths land so hard they silence the noise. This episode was full of them. If you take a breath with us for a second, here’s what we’re sitting with:

Redefine "Sin": Start seeing "sin" not as a moral failure, but as simply "missing the mark" of your inner truth. It’s a data point for course correction, not a life sentence.

The Direction of Your Efforts: Check your own energy. Are you exhausted from running away from what you fear? What would it feel like to pivot and start running toward a feeling, a goal, or a version of yourself that feels genuinely good?

Surrender is Not Passivity: Surrendering isn't about giving up. It's the active, powerful practice of giving over—releasing your white-knuckle grip on the "how" and trusting the intelligence of the universe (or your higher self) to guide you.

You Are Not Your Story: Your past is a book on a shelf. The stories are written. You don't have to keep rereading them. You can acknowledge the book exists without letting it dictate your present.

Witness the Chaos, Don't Become It: The goal isn't to eliminate chaos from your life. The goal is to cultivate a "witness self" that can sit in the middle of it all and remain at peace. Chaos can be around you without being in you.

The biggest takeaway? You have the power to stop fighting the current and instead, learn how to let it carry you to a shore you might not have even known existed.

Drop into the episode here.